Happy & Good Friday

 A marriage full of love and conviction is never easy to just turn your back from nor walk away from, especially when the marriage overcame many obstacles together, as one with three additional survivors, our very own heart at Goodwill, with our very own children. 

 For this reason, I write as I type and as I am typing to share the gladness and goodness that is found in God's favoring grace. To contribute to his goodness and mercy as we are presently at this moment in time, caught up united together under our American Flag, in our Nation, One Nation Under God. 

 You see, then I was only a 19-year-old child of God, living at my parents' home and unconventionally engaged to Louie. It wasn't easy for all of us to be in such a predicament and I journaled in the form of a diary to cope with the uncertainty in the middle of the desert. 

 However, his written words when he dedicated the photos of himself, to me, before me, in my presence alone, as he hand-delivered them to me at face value there at my parents, that moment, made a significant difference in my book of life. I knew for him our encounter wasn't just sexual, I was real to him and he let me know. 

 He said he couldn't wait to marry me. It was official, I was engaged and he went through with it. No one forced that moment upon him, he willingly chose to write those words as he felt in front of me. He must have had a change of heart later, but for a single moment, he was sure of himself. I know that, for a fact, at that moment he was in love with me. I kept his photographs and his memory to heart. 

 I hope my children appreciate the many efforts he and I did try but life is a continuum process and it's about the moment to moment love-co-creating process, as we make the best when we know the true value of life (self-love and the golden rule is applied on a two-way system). 

 There was a time when I did say, only God knows why he would allow for him and me (meaning Louie and me) to be set apart in the way we have been. Only he knows what he allowed Louie to do or not do, to have us physically apart, but I know he did love me, too much perhaps. 

 And Louie knows he's not been the perfect husband, to me per se, but I knew he was going to be and he is to this day a good dad. I made sure I let him know in the presence of our good friends Norma Galvan while Saul was at Fry's working that evening. Norma's husband, Saul, was actually the one who encouraged us to stop by, at Norma's and pay her an unexpected visit, he was so excited to see us that evening at Fry's... 

 When we walked into Fry's, Saul mentions Norma was expecting and I had wanted to visit my old high school friend... Of course, there was no question about it, we had to stop and say hello. And of course, this is when we had just had Isaac at the time and Saul and Norma did become participants and witnesses of, (part Louies and my), our own fairytale if we may say so.  

 And for Pete's sake, Saul bit off Louie's wheels and rims, from Discount Tires, when Louie and I were dating and Saul was dating Norma. This is what I remember, Louie had his Acura Integra with his new wheels and rims, of course, I drove that baby around, and Saul had his Honda Civic, Norma drove his baby around, but he ends up getting the same discount tires and rims Louie had on his Acura... Anyway... Happy and Good Friday

 It's always good to reminisce on God's Loving Grace.