Hindsight

 Looking back in time, as I look at the present and think of the potential I place into action to self-improve my overall health, wellness, and lives (I say lives because I'm a mother of three who are my world). You see, my need for change such as improving the dynamics of our family was and is intended for good in the better. Regression is never an option and nor should it take over the life of the person who is living according to own-persona high expectations. 

 I am grateful at this moment to type as I release history to embrace not uncertainty but a brighter future as we all have prepared the way for me to reach the fullness of not only my salvation and purpose in life but to reach the realm of Agape (self-love, altruistic love). 

 Although, I have wonderful memories of my childhood with my parents, siblings, aunties, uncles, and grandparents (not to forget the cousins). I also have the privilege to say, I am blessed because I did and do have a best friend who became the father of our own three children, and he is a good dad in spite of the misunderstanding that took place between us as a result of a phenomenon. 

 However, I would like to think and believe all the hardship I endured and we endured as a family, is not in vain, on the contrary, I'd like to think God the Almighty is in control of my/our life and he will never give me/us more than what we, he and I, can't handle together as one. 

 One of the most powerful self-realization in life is the gift of a grateful heart and not take to heart all the negativity. Also, my son and I  once watched the Nativity and I think the word nativity sounds better than negativity, so if there is something we did embrace, as a family and cared to acknowledge as a family is the birth, life, and ascension of our Lord Jesus Christ, which of course, includes the actual "Nativity Story" of the baby Jesus.  

 No, this doesn't mean I want to get back into a relationship with the father of my children (as husband and wife), but as a result of our time away from each other, I'd like to think we both grew into eaches own self-realization and I am proud of him (I do love him and I do understand that life happens). He has always been a responsible father and I knew he would be a good dad from the getgo.  

 I stick to my Lord and the hope we offered us to see eye to eye once again, with dignity and strength, respecting boundaries as individuals, who do in fact co-parent together, believe it or not.