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No means no. Free to say No. Free to walk away. Bye-Polar depression to me is when externally an unprecedented event occurs and it shows up and it shows up unexpectedly and unannounced and unsolicited and places me in a state of panic/emergency 🚨 having to choose from the fight, flight, freeze or ee-merge (get away from the shell) situation. 

Naturally we say no and walk freely away from strife and what didn’t serve well. The moment that woman placed her hands on me, was way more than molesting me, and violated my sense of belonging and space. 

I know for a fact this will place anyone in frantic hysteria. This has been a bipolar scene and situation that should not be allowed anywhere around me much less at church, around those I love and I know are there for me because they love God and me when they practice the golden rule serving the LORD.

Me agüita la persona que se paso de la madre osea de la raya! El egoismo no es AMOR!. The ego doesn’t respect boundaries is selfish didn’t care about the other person and only cares about self with their own personal interest and agenda. There is no joy in that. 

This happened when a controlling personality acts with controlling tactics by manipulating behaviors to achieve personal goals therefore tries to manipulate energy. And the strategy and approach doesn’t work on me nor for me.  Hence why her laying of her hands on me was her last chance and technique to get my attention and that was wrong.

It is written where the Spirit of the Lord is there is freedom but real freedom involves self control and takes respecting another by not placing hands on them and not violating their sacred space, no need for confrontations especially at church and over unsolicited nonsense. But confessing brings deliverance. 

No. This behavior is not to be tolerated, not in my book the Holy Bible and not in the Book of Mormon. Contention is not from God; Strife is not from of God. As a matter of fact, to go up to someone should be and is authorized by law of proxy as for the person to be summoned to do so in God’s Kingdom. I know that, and this person was, is and is not elected to do that for me... Enough, I wash my hands clean. 

In life when you offend someone you are responsible and in order for your prayers to be heard from God one must ask to be pardoned by the person one’s offended. It’s even emphasized in the Articles of Faith by Joseph Smith the founder of the church organization. Making peace has a much greater reward than living a single sided lie because the mirror of life doesn’t lie.  That is the spirit and law of Christ (the Fathers will on Earth as in the Heavens) to be peacemakers, his children. 

I'm so upset though, to know she dared to control my physical body by force!! Ugh and I'm so upset at myself for being so vulnerable at church. And to think I was safe at church because I've been working on healthy boundaries for so long and in a matter of nonsense seconds by an unknown person to me, she became more than an intruder in my own six feet social distance sacred space. 

All this time I’ve been careful to not let anyone touch me much less inappropriately and I don’t care how innocent it’s painted. It’s not right to touch me, go around confronting me, and or placing your hands on me. I’m not a person to hang around a people that lack self control, that is a lawless person, a people like me roam freely and enjoy happy experiences and having to be avoiding confrontational people and situations is the opposite of joy, contentment, and happiness.

What is one to do when one thought they were in a safe zone because you've worked hard internally and externally to make sure you meet the finish line by obtaining self control, self respect, by respecting personal boundaries and applying the golden rule onto another by setting the record straight with personal boundaries. I respect people that share my similar level of concerns by one simply decision to say no and peacefully mind one’s own business by walking away respectfully. 

Got me to think and I've been thinking this whole time I've not been the problem, it just manifests as if I'm bipolar but it's definitely something external as to look further into and for me to meditate about in the form of deflection. 

I’m glad the truth is revealing itself and for good! Very thankful and grateful for this because if not for the experience and awareness it’s hard to know this doesn’t belong to me and I can lay it down at the feet of Jesus. He’s Won for US!